Letters to JJ

 Dear JJ,  You'd be nine months old today. It's so hard for me to wrap my mind around that. I can't even imagine you as nine months old. In my mind you'll forever be my sweet little five month old baby.  Nine months seems like such a big milestone to me. I was thinking about how a lot of moms post those "9 months in vs. 9 months out" comparison pics. Its crazy for me to think that I carried you longer on the inside than I got to on the outside.  Life has been pretty quiet and uneventful for us these first few months of the new year. We went on a couple of ski trips. And as hard as it is for me to admit it, we did have fun. It doesn't feel right for me to enjoy myself without you here. But I know you would want your mommy and daddy to be happy.  I have been keeping myself busy by working on some different ways to honor your memory. We are collecting children's books to create a little library in your name at our church. This was your BB's idea. We h