One year later
Dear JJ, I did it. I’ve survived a whole year without you. Even though I don't have you physically here with me, I still feel your presence so close around me all the time. That is the only thing that has gotten me through the past year. Looking back the last 365 days all feel like a blur. I made it through all of the firsts. I dreaded each one in the days leading up to it, but each time you sent me some kind of sign to let me know that you were right there with me. A lot has changed since this time last year. Your little sister was born just two weeks ago. Right in the same hospital where we had to say goodbye to you a year ago. I was shocked to find out it was a little sister that you had chosen for us. But your daddy swore he knew it from day one. When I first found out I was pregnant again I struggled so much to form any connection with this new baby growing inside of me. I couldn’t feel excited about the arrival of someone new when all I wanted was to have YOU back. Yo